I can't do this. I can't. I am not strong enough to handle all the things that are coming at me. I can't - I am struggling. I don't want to do this anymore and I don't understand why this has fallen to me. I am pissed - I don't want to do this anymore, I am not strong enough to handle this, I can't do this I can't...I don't want to do this anymore...I can't...
Then, I look into their eyes & I realize that I can & I will. I have to because I love them. I cannot be the one to let them down, they have had enough of that. I will do whatever I can because I love them. With all my heart & soul I love them!
